Stories on Depression: A Letter to the World After My Nudes Leaked
I have been quiet about the issue on my nudes for so long and I’ve heard so many versions of the story behind it, the tabloid articles and giggles from childhood friends, and the social media bullying. I got so tired hearing those lies and stupid questions on and on. So…
I would like to thank everyone who was there for me when I was going through all those struggles. You all know who you are! Thank you for all your love, care, and encouragement. You never failed to remind me that no matter how cruel the world can get, there’s still a part of it that will somehow show us that it is still worth living.
To my family who just found out about this, I’m sorry if I’ve been very secretive to you about it. I just wasn’t ready for your reactions. We were already struggling with many other problems and I just didn’t want to add up to your burden. Thank you for the unconditional love and support you’ve given me. Ever since you found out about what I’ve gone through, you’ve shown your love for me even more. I am beyond grateful that you are my family!
To my friends who cried with me, who fought cyberbullies for me and drank the pain away with me, THANK YOU! I never really thought people like you actually do exist- genuinely caring and thoughtful. Some of you may have gotten involved in this issue because of our friendship. Some of you were even judged by other people because you were friends with a “whore,” and even with that, it didn’t stop you from helping me get through this. Whenever someone chatted me and slut-shames me, you, guys, would never hesitate to fight them back for me because you knew how emotionally unfit I was to handle those people.
To the friends I lost after they have found out what I did, I just wish we could have spoken about what I was going through instead of judging me right away and just leaving but that’s okay because I have realized you weren’t really meant to stay in my life and that you weren’t really a true friend. Yes, I was hurt when I found out a couple of you didn’t like me anymore after what I did but that’s okay, it just shows how you really are as a person and how you really are when your friend is going through something terrible.
To the friends I gained because of this experience, I’m so glad I met you! Thank you for listening to me and for not judging me. Even if we just hung-out once or twice, you’ll always have a place in my heart. I’m really glad that my issue didn’t hinder you from liking me hahahaha but instead it created a great friendship with you.
I have come to terms with what happened, and most importantly, have stopped blaming myself. But one thought that still worries me years on is whether my pictures linger in the dark cyber-void. I guess this is something I will just have to learn to live with. But for now, I will join the fight, proudly wearing my own story on my sleeve for the very first time.
Story by Anonnymous
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